[ as maes falls silent, riza starts to understand the territory they're stepping into. the territory that hughes has specifically brought to her, to save asking roy. the weight of this exchange is noted, for sure, and riza does her best to prepare for it. because while she and maes may not know each other as either of them know roy, or as roy knows either of them, they have a shared set of values. a shared goal, and shared priorities.
he is her superior officer, sure, but he also is allowed to be frustrated. allowed to be concerned. allowed - as riza soon sees - bitter questions directed at an impossible witch. she doesn't take them personally, though she does need a moment to consider them herself. ]
There's not- [ she pauses, reconsiders, and then lets out a soft exhale. despite herself, there is a flash of hughes from before - bloodied, weak, sleeping in the corner of a makeshift tent in a forest that none of them had been prepared for. she sees roy, haunted and falling apart, asking why in this exact same frame of mind. but then riza takes another breath, resets herself, because she has to. because she needs to, for them. ]
Sir, there's no proof she is going to send you- or any of us- back. [ which, as soon as the words leave her, riza winces ever so slightly - realizing the extent of her comment, of what it could mean. ] I don't know what her expectations are, or why she brought us here at all, but Roy and I- [ there's a brief part of her that worries she used roy instead of general but she continues anyway. ] We've been here, or at the mercy of the previous witch, for nearly a year.
[ another pause, and then she shakes her head. she's not good at this. she's never been good at this. ]
Astoria is using us to do a job she can't do herself, and is bringing people here consistently to help us do that job. There have been people sent back, but every time she's asked about it, she doesn't know why or how. Just that she 'lost connection' with someone.
[So that's it then. There's nothing to fight here, nothing to rail against, because like everything it is out of his control. He's glad he brought this to Riza though, because if there is one thing he trusts her to do it is to not pull punches about this. In a way, even if this isn't the answer he wanted, it still helps to hear it. It means that he can start thinking of his time here differently. It's...still a bit of a ticking time bomb in a way, but at least (as far as they know) it isn't one that Astoria has implemented as some sick, twisted game.
It's not much of an answer really. And while he may now never see his wife and child again, he can at least continue living here. He doesn't know what that means for the future, but he realizes that none of the others do either. Maybe he can have a little hope, but he has to realize that it has to be tempered with the fact that realistically he may very well return to die all over again.
Up until now, he'd been thinking that there might be a way to negotiate some kind of agreement with Astoria. Some way to extend his life or even return home at some point down the line when this plan of her's was fulfilled. But, he supposes if he thinks about it, there are probably an infinite number of worlds and if she's trying to help all of them...well, they could be at this for some time.
Maes quietly processes this, his shoulders dropping a bit as he finally lets go of the panicked problem solving he'd been trying to do in his head. He takes a breath.]
All right. I think I understand a little better now. [Pause, and then he adds.] Thank you.
[ riza...doesn't like this. she doesn't like the way she can see hughes almost deflate, doesn't like the way she phrased what she did or how it probably came across. there's a reason she doesn't like to be the one to explain this sort of thing, because she's sure there was some kind of point she's missing, or reason she didn't explain.
hughes watches her in those moments after, processing what it is she has to say, and riza wishes, desperately, that this will be...okay. there's so much more to this conversation that she's not equipped to handle - grieving, death, general hughes standing in front of her, but riza hawkeye isn't one to step down from a situation, and especially not one like this, no matter how well or not she may be able to handle it.
when he lets out a breath, riza finds herself holding her own in - just for a moment, just until he finishes speaking, before she exhales herself. ]
You're...welcome. [ she's not confident he has anything to thank her about, but riza isn't going to tell him as much. ]
And....sir? [ because she has to say it. because she needs him to believe it, because she needs roy to believe it. ] When we go to all of these different worlds, there might be something we're not considering. We've already experienced technology beyond what any of us can accomplish back home, and magic, too. [ the word doesn't sit very well in her mouth, but there's no other way to explain kathashun. to explain this. ] If I've learned anything while we've been under the thumb of these witches, it's that nothing is impossible.
[Perhaps not, but in some ways it is a thank you for addressing him at all. He knew he'd be dropping a lot on her, but he appreciates that she is willing to take it on. Usually he would leave the 'burdening other people' thing to Roy. But he'd been driving himself crazy with possibilities and he still wasn't sure how he felt about asking these questions of Astoria. But, perhaps it was starting to get to be a time when he should.
At Riza's additional assessment he nods.]
Very true. I'll keep that in mind as we move forward. We're in a really unique situation here, so who knows what might come out of it.
[ she nods, even though a good part of her doesn't think she helped hughes nearly as much as she would have liked. but there's also - in general - a lot to deal with here, and she's not nearly qualified enough to help a man grapple with the fact he is dead back home, but alive here, and what will happen moving forward.
still, riza tried. and she'll keep trying, if hughes needs her to. ]
The only thing we've really been able to gather so far- you have to be prepared for just about anything.
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he is her superior officer, sure, but he also is allowed to be frustrated. allowed to be concerned. allowed - as riza soon sees - bitter questions directed at an impossible witch. she doesn't take them personally, though she does need a moment to consider them herself. ]
There's not- [ she pauses, reconsiders, and then lets out a soft exhale. despite herself, there is a flash of hughes from before - bloodied, weak, sleeping in the corner of a makeshift tent in a forest that none of them had been prepared for. she sees roy, haunted and falling apart, asking why in this exact same frame of mind. but then riza takes another breath, resets herself, because she has to. because she needs to, for them. ]
Sir, there's no proof she is going to send you- or any of us- back. [ which, as soon as the words leave her, riza winces ever so slightly - realizing the extent of her comment, of what it could mean. ] I don't know what her expectations are, or why she brought us here at all, but Roy and I- [ there's a brief part of her that worries she used roy instead of general but she continues anyway. ] We've been here, or at the mercy of the previous witch, for nearly a year.
[ another pause, and then she shakes her head. she's not good at this. she's never been good at this. ]
Astoria is using us to do a job she can't do herself, and is bringing people here consistently to help us do that job. There have been people sent back, but every time she's asked about it, she doesn't know why or how. Just that she 'lost connection' with someone.
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It's not much of an answer really. And while he may now never see his wife and child again, he can at least continue living here. He doesn't know what that means for the future, but he realizes that none of the others do either. Maybe he can have a little hope, but he has to realize that it has to be tempered with the fact that realistically he may very well return to die all over again.
Up until now, he'd been thinking that there might be a way to negotiate some kind of agreement with Astoria. Some way to extend his life or even return home at some point down the line when this plan of her's was fulfilled. But, he supposes if he thinks about it, there are probably an infinite number of worlds and if she's trying to help all of them...well, they could be at this for some time.
Maes quietly processes this, his shoulders dropping a bit as he finally lets go of the panicked problem solving he'd been trying to do in his head. He takes a breath.]
All right. I think I understand a little better now. [Pause, and then he adds.] Thank you.
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hughes watches her in those moments after, processing what it is she has to say, and riza wishes, desperately, that this will be...okay. there's so much more to this conversation that she's not equipped to handle - grieving, death, general hughes standing in front of her, but riza hawkeye isn't one to step down from a situation, and especially not one like this, no matter how well or not she may be able to handle it.
when he lets out a breath, riza finds herself holding her own in - just for a moment, just until he finishes speaking, before she exhales herself. ]
You're...welcome. [ she's not confident he has anything to thank her about, but riza isn't going to tell him as much. ]
And....sir? [ because she has to say it. because she needs him to believe it, because she needs roy to believe it. ] When we go to all of these different worlds, there might be something we're not considering. We've already experienced technology beyond what any of us can accomplish back home, and magic, too. [ the word doesn't sit very well in her mouth, but there's no other way to explain kathashun. to explain this. ] If I've learned anything while we've been under the thumb of these witches, it's that nothing is impossible.
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At Riza's additional assessment he nods.]
Very true. I'll keep that in mind as we move forward. We're in a really unique situation here, so who knows what might come out of it.
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still, riza tried. and she'll keep trying, if hughes needs her to. ]
The only thing we've really been able to gather so far- you have to be prepared for just about anything.